1. |
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[Verse 1]
Questioning, I'm jeopardized
Had to ask the devil why
Bring me down from heaven's sky
This might be a blessing in disguise
I intensify
Making my repression die
Don't care if I'm dead, alive
Rebound my depression to a high
Let me emphasize
I've been feeling petrified
Everything that's said tonight
I'll probably regret and reconcile
I'm desensitized
Every day just getting by
I can't even recognize
Maybe armageddon's nigh
[Chorus]
This might be the hardest
Thing for me to harness
I gotta be honest
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
I don’t have anyone to turn to
I never deserved you
Don't wanna concern you
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
Yeah I know that
This might be the hardest
Thing for me to harness
I gotta be honest
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
I don’t have anyone to turn to
I never deserved you
Don't wanna concern you
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
[Verse 2]
We're not destined to be what we wanted to be
Maybe we're doomed to be common, not free
Stop me from bending and taking a knee
Don't go with my plea bring the ending to me
Remember the times when we wanted to die
The times where our plans failed and things went awry
The months after August and weeks in July
No I wouldn't lie should I say goodbye
[Verse 3]
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Yeah I got the whole crew but I'm still feeling blue
I got red in my eyes, I got green in my food
But the world's staying grey in my view what to do
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Mother says it's been years since I've sat in a pew
Yeah it's true but just being in church made me puke
What's the point of a god if he's not sending clues
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Never calling a truce I keep paying my dues
No I don't give a fuck if my shit's misconstrued
Don't care 'bout your insults and verbal abuse
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
I'm not keeping my cool got no time for you fools
Might come off as crude or just blowing my fuse
But you fucks can't accuse me of not being true
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Do this shit for myself in my head got the proof
Perhaps satisfaction will always elude me
But so help me god I'll still see this shit through
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
In my head I got trouble I'm hearing it brew
Soul leaving my body the void still consumes
Me and fuck I don't know if I'm right to assume
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
I'm not kicking the chair I'm not getting the noose
Got more shit to do I've got shit to do
Got people who need me I can't meet my doom
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Save the liquor and booze and my knees that were bruised
Don't wanna be yet one more dead on the news
’Cause those deaths come in twos, even more it's the truth
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Save the liquor and booze and my knees that were bruised
Don't wanna be yet one more dead on the news
‘Cause those deaths come in twos, even more it's the truth
I got nothing to
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2. |
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[Verse 1: ALIEN DAYS]
I'll stick this foreign object in my thigh
And pretend I'm not scared
And pretend I'm not hyperventilating
And I'll stick this foreign object in my thigh
I can't do this for too long
I can't do this for too long
I just wanna be who I am internally
I remember parking lots, late nights with my friends at parks
Having machinations but no way to make them fucking work
Every day tracing out album art inside my math journal
Cause I couldn't focus on anything else in the goddamn world
When I'm losing sleep, losing money, losing friends and feeling shitty
All I end up doing is get lost in my own head
I can't connect with this reality
I feel like I'm stuck in my dreams no matter what is thought or said
[Verse 2: PK Shellboy]
Turn reality into dreams, dreams into reality
Looking off into the starry seas, to look for what my mind perceives
Putting faith into what eyes can see, reaching out for other galaxies
Nothing's really ever made complete, the universe is bursting at the seams
Maybe someday our paths will meet, in a semblance of normality
We'll never know what's coming next reveals, all that's forward still remains unseen
Let's escape from this calamity, as soon as we begin to sleep
Turn reality into dreams, dreams into reality
[Outro: PK Shellboy, Italics: ALIEN DAYS]
Reality (Dreams) [I'm so lost, I'm so lost, I'm so lost, where you can't find me]
[Outro 2: PK Shellboy - Robert Frost - Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening]
The woods are lovely, dark and deep
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep
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3. |
Itsumo
03:50
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[Verse 1]
Don't try to say that
Don't try to say that
Far and away, make memories fade out
Don't try to say that
Don't try to say that
Voice by the bay air hearing the waves crash
Don't try to say that
Don't try to say that
Promise was made then don't try to break that
Don't try to say that
Don't try to say that
Ahh, ahh
[Chorus]
Don’t try to deny it, I know that you’re tired
Another day together sitting in the silence
I used to be the only person you admired
Those days are over, I'm reminded
Let it all go, set the bar up so low
You say that you don't know
We're liars, you and me both
Holding on tight, yet another long night
Never sleep with dry eyes
Emotions running so high
But you're always gonna
[Post-chorus]
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
[Bridge]
Answer's automatic
Yeah I'd call myself an addict
Gone fanatic
Non-romantic
Been six months since my last Xanax
You're a bandit
Always steal my gaze
Say I feel no ways
But I ain't okay
My soul DOA
Sleep for three whole days, don't wake up
I've been hibernating
Rules been violated
Try relating
I'm debating
Where to go cause I'm tired of waiting
Dilating
Circle keeps me in
Breathe out, breathing in
I'm obedient
Can't stop reading in
To words when I see the end, don't wake up
[Verse 2]
Why would you say that
Why would you say that
Losing my way here, I know you're jaded
Why would you say that
Why would you say that
Trusting, afraid I'd let you betray that
Why would you say that
Why would you say that
Know I'm dismayed but can't be persuaded
Why would you say that
Why would you say that
Ahh, ahh
[Chorus]
Don’t try to deny it, I know that you’re tired
Another day together sitting in the silence
I used to be the only person you admired
Those days are over, I'm reminded
Let it all go, set the bar up so low
You say that you don't know
We're liars, you and me both
Holding on tight, yet another long night
Never sleep with dry eyes
Emotions running so high
But you're always gonna
[Post-chorus]
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
Let me down, let me down
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4. |
Mirror
02:57
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Verse]
Staring right into the eyes that are in front of me
Nothing left to do but break up the monotony
Voices in my head, convening like a colony
Everything I take into me is a part of me
No I never stay the same I'm changing constantly
Moving forward, nothing backward like the pawn in me
Empty head, take my thoughts like it's a robbery
What I put behind me, never know the quantity
I've been living for your favor, for your benefit
Even though you've always acted kinda reticent
I wanna be a better person, be benevolent
Think I'll only get to do that if I'm genuine
Take a pill that makes it better, take my medicine
Sleep too much and I don’t even take a sedative
Break me cause I'm delicate, get into my element
Stare into my eyes, even if I'm feeling hesitant
[Chorus]
Looking in the mirror, in the mirror, in the mirror, and I ask, has it always been this way
I'm a sinner, I'm a sinner, I'm a sinner, no I've never been a saint
Yeah I'm bitter, yeah I'm bitter, yeah I'm bitter and I can't wash out that taste
I'll consider I'll consider I'll consider if I want to see my face
In the mirror, in the mirror, in the mirror, and I ask, has it always been this way
I'm a sinner, I'm a sinner, I'm a sinner, no I've never been a saint
Yeah I'm bitter, yeah I'm bitter, yeah I'm bitter and I can't wash out that taste
I'll consider I'll consider I'll consider if I want to see my face
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5. |
Fallen
03:17
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[Verse 1]
Staring deep into the mirror, never see my smile
I'm not this and I'm not that, I know I'm in denial
Stepping forward two steps backward, it's not linear
I don't feel like I belong anywhere on the earth
[Chorus 1]
Yeah I’m falling, I hear something calling
Looking for it, even though I don't know if I want it
Yeah I know I'm falling, I feel like I'm haunted
Monkey on my back, I got a devil on my gauntlet
I know that I'm falling, leave me like it's autumn
I can't shed a tear or even say I'm brokenhearted
I know that I'm guarded, flight has just departed
But I clipped my wings right when it started
Yeah I know I'm falling
[Verse 2]
Not a demon, not a saint, I'm somewhere in between
But as days go by I get much harder to redeem
Make the same mistakes I'll always be doomed to repeat
No forgiveness for me, too unworthy to receive
[Chorus 1]
Yeah I’m falling, I hear something calling
Looking for it, even though I don't know if I want it
Yeah I know I'm falling, I feel like I'm haunted
Monkey on my back, I got a devil on my gauntlet
I know that I'm falling, leave me like it's autumn
I can't shed a tear or even say I'm brokenhearted
I know that I'm guarded, flight has just departed
But I clipped my wings right when it started
Yeah I know I'm falling
[Chorus 2]
In the evening, in the morning
No the feeling isn't foreign
We could walk across that bridge, yeah we could give it a try
I'll be there for every moment
Won't be gone ‘til hell is frozen
We could jump in the abyss if you believe we can fly
[Bridge]
Falling face first, heights never made me nauseous
But I stay cautious, fears have got their causes
I can't cut my losses, falling even further
I don't want to be a burden and you're up above me soaring
You keep getting higher but the ground is getting closer
I keep getting lower, is this really over
But I feel my shoulder, lifting up my body
Yeah I'm helpless, yeah I'm sorry, but I'm thankful you're a soldier
[Hatsune Miku Bridge]
[Chorus 2]
In the evening, in the morning
No the feeling isn't foreign
We could walk across that bridge, yeah we could give it a try
I'll be there for every moment
Won't be gone ‘til hell is frozen
We could jump in the abyss if you believe we can fly
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6. |
Extant (feat. AOL)
03:57
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[Verse 1: PK Shellboy]
Feeling lighter than a feather
Chain me to the bedpost I've been tethered
I've been tryna center
Balancing the drink, not getting redder
Sipping on some water for the weather
Vocals like an ember
Put me through the amp like I'm a Fender
Waiting for my Ableton to render
Never getting censored
Highs and lows I'm sorta getting better
Following my schedule to the letter
7AM: be the best
10PM: be the best
Staying on the top cause I ain't getting any rest
And no I'm not afraid to put my shit to the test
Yeah your shit is a mess, keep my cards to my chest
Yeah I'm manic-depressed, no that shit ain't a flex
Yeah them clout chasing fuckers the ones I detest
I'm keeping my souls and your ears fucking blessed
Bring in the hook next
[Chorus: PK Shellboy]
Live another day, gonna live another day
Gotta make sure that we eat and that there's dinner on the way
Consider what I say, come in swinging in the fray
Gonna live another day, gonna live another day
Live another day, gonna live another day
Gotta make sure that we eat and that there's dinner on the way
Consider what I say, come in swinging in the fray
Gonna live another day, gonna live another day
[Verse 2: AOL]
(You’ve got mail)
No matter what stays above me
I got all these people in my life I know they love me
Look into my eyes do you trust me
Static in my mind when you touch me
Live another day
I'm tryna live my life get the bullshit out the way
I'm tryna keep my mind all this bullshit in my brain
Man I don't pay no mind to what these fuckers gotta say
What a waste
Beat my face
Upload my brain
Do the race
Roll up a L
Start my day
Cybergrl
Keep up the pace
Keep up the pace
I'm running circles in my head now
It's getting harder just to get up outta bed now
If I took everything you fuckin threw I would be dead now
So I just try to blank out everything you fucking said now
Never mind that shit, I'm getting better
Recovery this shit is such a process
My moods still changing with the weather
At least I know I'm making fucking progress
I'm just a girl tryna fit in
I think my mind is fucking broken
But it doesn't really matter
I roll up all my problems then I smoke it (real)
We live another day
A wise man told me nothing's ever down to fate
I think that all this shit is just the first side of the tape
But soon it's gonna flip and then I'm on my fucking way
Why the fuck would I wait
Cause nothing's coming to you less you pick up the pace
I pick up the pace
I move all the beats like it's weight
There's nothing that's stopping the race
Live another day
[Chorus: PK Shellboy]
Live another day, gonna live another day
Gotta make sure that we eat and that there's dinner on the way
Consider what I say, come in swinging in the fray
Gonna live another day, gonna live another day
Live another day, gonna live another day
Gotta make sure that we eat and that there's dinner on the way
Consider what I say, come in swinging in the fray
Gonna live another day, gonna live another day
[Verse 3: PK Shellboy]
Yeah they've brought something to see
Shit is as fucked as can be
They want us to follow their lead
They say that they won't but they do it again
They're bringing a fire to the tree
Bringing us further to sea
All of their money is greed
We’ve gotta work to be free
But as we go on we should save those in need
Meanwhile im paying my fees
I bring my luck into play
I get the buck get the pay
I get my cut by the way
All of my brothers and sisters and enbies
Are eating today
Yeah I got something to say
People are stuck in their ways
Everyone running away
Why can't you stand up and put up a fight
What are you trying to gain
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7. |
Shotgun
04:17
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[Verse 1]
Got a shotgun in the back
Riding shotgun in the glove I got a gat
Taking off the gloves so god above let me adapt
Burner getting charged, I don’t wanna interact
Slipping off the pills, can't afford another night
Starry in the sky, but you still ask me for a light
Smoking out the window, outta mind, it's outta sight
Won't open up my mouth, I don't want another fight
Drive a couple dozen miles, yet we never speed it up
Soda in my bottle, you got coffee in your mug
Bitter as a tab that I ground up into dust
Slowing even more because the pick-up's in the mud
Spin the tires up, yeah I'd like to see you try
Getting tired, getting bored, I let out a little sigh
Then you ask why, I look away, avert my eyes
This is how the cookie crumbles this is how it goes awry
[Chorus]
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
[Verse 2]
Get the tires out the dirt
Windows open, muck is on my shirt
I mutter little fuck yous on alert
You sound so fucking curt
I try to reassert but then we bicker ‘til we're bitter, getting bottles for my thirst
My soda turns to liquor
My skull is getting thicker
We fail to make a stop so we're not getting any dinner
Head is getting bigger
I say that you're a sinner, you're a quitter
I'm a winner and that's how we fucking differ
It's getting to my liver
I feel a fucking fist right on my face and then my lights are out, I see a little glimmer
I hear a little snicker, you always were a kidder
I just forgot you had a talent for those heavy hitters
Regain myself don't know what to consider
I climb back to the back lower the window and I grab the fucking stinger
The car is at a skitter
My finger's on the trigger
Found out that the world ends with both a bang and a whimper
[Chorus]
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
[Bridge]
(no lyrics)
[Verse 3]
I wake up with bloody hands
Car in shambles, underneath, my body crammed
Spitting out detritus from a mouth that's full of sand
So much for a trip where everything can go to plan
Looking to my left, there's nobody at the wheel
Try to move my arm, can my fingers even feel
Skin is broken up with shards of glass and bits of steel
Someone walks up to the broken car, he looks and kneels
Opens up the door, lends a hand, I'm standing up
Smelling like my liquor and the coffee in your mug
Mixed with gasoline from the tanker of the truck
Look up see him carrying the shotgun wet with blood
Rubbing out my eyes, I can barely even see
Take a good look at his face I see you but I see me
I finally concede, I don’t beg and I don't plead
I point the shotgun at my head, I know that I'm gonna bleed
[Chorus]
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
I don't wanna spend a day with you
But I gotta stay with you
And no I'm not okay with you
I can't even hesitate with you
Driving me insane with you
Yeah, no I'm not okay with you
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8. |
Implosion
04:58
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[Verse 1]
Sky pitch black, I know I'm not looking back, all I'm seeing is the darkness
Looking for a sweet taste, but I'll never replace, lingering with tartness
I can never think well, drawing from the inkwell, suited to an artist
Put it down precisely, flowing red inside me, I make a deposit
Hands are getting shakier, spilling on the paper, writing getting blotted
Wiping off the ink first, scars all on my fingers, never getting clotted
Pen is getting filled up, scabs are making buildup, situation's common
Stain all on my shirt, can you tell me why it hurts if I'm making something lauded
[Verse 2]
Hand to my chest like I had a heart attack
Plugged to the cables, jumpstarted that
Tied to the chair, sitting on the launching pad
Dot on my head, don’t know that I'm targeted
Only see distortion, pixels, artifacts
Never learned to clean up, erase, or sharpen that
Program aborted, crashing, start, react
Wonder why I find it harder to relax
Smoke in the air, sky tinted carbon black
Inhaling too much, yeah I'm going sorta mad
A death of a kind, yeah I guess you'd call it that
Close to the monitor, flatline cardiac
Ascend, make amends, tell me where the party at
Looking to the gates, but I see them guarding that
Apples to apples, where's the garden at
God, won't you tell me if I've got my pardon yet
[Chorus]
Oh could you tell me why I wasn't chosen
I'll be abandoned ‘til the day hell's frozen
Yeah I know that I'm gone, all my fingers are numb
Never was number one, I hope you're having fun but
I'll suck it up ‘til I make an implosion
Oh could you tell me why I wasn't chosen
I'll be abandoned ‘til the day hell's frozen
Yeah I know that I'm gone, all my fingers are numb
Never was number one, I hope you're having fun but
I'll suck it up ‘til I make an implosion
[Bridge]
(no lyrics)
[Chorus]
Oh could you tell me why I wasn't chosen
I'll be abandoned ‘til the day hell's frozen
Yeah I know that I'm gone, all my fingers are numb
Never was number one, I hope you're having fun but
I'll suck it up ‘til I make an implosion
Oh could you tell me why I wasn't chosen
I'll be abandoned ‘til the day hell's frozen
Yeah I know that I'm gone, all my fingers are numb
Never was number one, I hope you're having fun but
I'll suck it up ‘til I make an implosion
[Outro]
Make more make more make more make
Take more take more take more take more
Make make make make make make make make
Take take take take take take take take
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9. |
Goodbye
02:20
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[Verse]
No I didn't want to say it
But there are things I've gotta say
I know that face I know you're praying
I thought I'd never see the day
I can't allay your fears
Or soften words upon your ears
I know you don't wanna give up
I see you fighting back the tears
They're running down your face
And now my own are keeping pace
It's not as if I'm disappearing
Won't be gone without a trace
I know you'll see
This is the end for you and me
But just keep going for yourself
Because you know just what you mean to me
You mean to me
[Outro]
I don't want you to say goodbye
(It's time to go, we've had our highs, we've had our lows)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I don't want anybody more than you I gotta let you know)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(My heart aglow, we've gotta let each other grow)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(It feels like times like these were destined since a thousand years ago)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(It's time to go, we've had our highs, we've had our lows)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I don't want anybody more than you I gotta let you know)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(My heart aglow, we've gotta let each other grow)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(It feels like times like these were destined since a thousand years ago)
I don't want you to say goodbye
(Got phantoms in my bedroom, open windows I don't mind the light)
[I got no questions, no jeopardy]
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I take my medication, I'm on uppers not no cyanide)
[Got answers, Alex Trebek on me]
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I know I'll make it happen, keep it on the up don't die inside)
[I got no need for celebrity]
{You're the highlight, you're the highlight, you're the highlight}
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I breathe in then I breathe out, keep on making carbon dioxide)
[Got status I got that pedigree]
{You're the highlight you're the high high highlight}
I don't want you to say goodbye
(Got phantoms in my bedroom, open windows I don't mind the light)
[I got no questions, no jeopardy]
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I take my medication, I'm on uppers not no cyanide)
[Got answers, Alex Trebek on me]
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I know I'll make it happen, keep it on the up don't die inside)
[I got no need for celebrity]
{You're the highlight, you're the highlight, you're the highlight}
I don't want you to say goodbye
(I breathe in then I breathe out, keep on making carbon dioxide)
[Got status I got that pedigree]
{You're the highlight you're the high high highlight}
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