from
Fractalize,
released March 19, 2021
I’m aimless
I’m nameless
I’ve been falling downward through abysses spikes and torture chambers
I can’t fall asleep with these eyes pointed at me
And now it’s starting to seem
Like they’re taking hold of me
Like they’re crawling in my cerebellum, hack receptors straight to heaven
Angels tear out my retinas, with my bones they’re playing Tetris
My body no longer my own these days
I’m minding my business but gods still ray
I’m covered in burns, happens every day
And I’m fading to white, I fade away
Everybody knows that i fade away
Ask me how it happened I still can’t say
Hit me up for research shrug it away
I’m a freak of faith now it’s plain as day
They reel in disgust, leer at my decay
Cradling the earth I feel her decay
Hurts me in my soul, I carry her weight
Half my heart is hurting, the other's frayed
And I can’t fight what I don’t know
CNF leaking in the snow
I just rust I never grow
How or why I’ll never know
And I can’t fight what I don’t know
CNF leaking in the snow
I just rust I never grow
How or why I’ll never know
Anaesthesiated love
Pinch me I do not feel enough
I’ve been yearning for your touch
But when I get it it’s just numb
Killz said it’s spooky in the cut
Contaminants up in my blood
Wish I sang ‘bout different stuff
But I dug deep and got stuck
Stranded in the ocean I'm floating
Can't keep track of time I'm devoting
I just wait and swim in the silence
I can feel my sanity going
Ice is in the water I'm frozen
See light in the distance, It's golden
I fall prey to destiny's kindness
Drowning out before I get chosen
Float through the back door
Hearing the countdown
Out of my body
Fly all around town
Give me a seance
Send me to new heights
Look all around me
Pockets of blue light
Setting flame to everything i see
I feel the walls surrounding me
I'm getting crushed I need to breathe
I pound the concrete til it breaks
And then my hands begin to bleed
I look above for heaven's sake
Is this what I've been meant to be
I'm sick and tired of writing
I'm sick and tired of fighting
I'm sick and tired of everything
Nothing gets me excited
I'm sick and tired of waiting
I'm sick and tired of playing
If there's a god up above me
I'm sick and tired of praying, I'm praying
Do you hear me praying
Do you hear me praying
I can't tell, oh god above
Can you hear what I'm saying
Gimme one more sign
Because I need to stay alive
I'm making it through this calamity
Cause I don’t wanna
